What We Will and Won't Do For Love.

Well I don't know about everyone else, but I have had about 4 loves worth talking about so far, in all of my 22 years on this green Earth. I have a great deal that I cared for , but my belief is that depending on what type of person you are and what kind of energy you are sending out; depends on what kinds of relationships you'll have. So with that in mind, I know that when we care or love someone there are certain things that we do or deal with even if its not necessary. Trust me I know because I've done it myself, so I know how it feels to be out of character because we are concerned about making that other person happy.
My first love was a one of a kind and genuinely loved me for me and I was too young and naive to see that he did care about me. He was the one I hurt the most, but it was not intentional. He even accepted and forgave me for cheating on him, but in my opinion a man is a man, so he definitely did not forget it and what goes around comes around. So when we finally decided to call it quits, I never really met another person that gave that certain kind of love to me and loved me no matter what I did.
The second was my boo all the way, but I would not consider it the traditional way. By the time I came across my second love, I was a little more experienced and understanding for the most part of how relationships worked now, so I was a little better prepared. We never really had a chance for our potential love to blossom because one year after meeting him he was murdered. I have never quite recovered from that blow to my heart. We were best friends first and then lovers and able to know what each other was thinking or feeling.
After him, I had left my hometown of St. Louis Missouri to travel the country and sell magazines because I thought that it would expand my horizons and it did. I have to say that door to door sales is something that you can use later in life and it teaches to think positively about reaching goals. Once I made it to California, I was a little disappointed about the quality of African American men here, until a met a unique man, from Los Angeles born and raised.
The connection that me and love number 3 was so strong and unusual almost as if we had known each other before and were good friends first as well lovers. We had a sweet and beautiful time until fate came along and changed all that. However 4 years after our time spent in a relationship, we have still manged to be able to connect with one another and still have the same feelings, even if we are doing something else. We son't cheat or anything, but just how we may not hear from one another in a while, we somehow are still drawn together.
Now love number 4 is what changes the game for me and trulky alowed me to experience different kinds and levels of love. I am a lesbian now and I have been for the last 5 years. The woman that I am with has showm me a whole different kind of love and caring for another person and I love and appreciate her for it. But like with all other relationships there are problems, but there is an undeniable respect for one another.
So I have said all of this because I tried to put almost as many people as possible into account of what we define as love or what we will and won't do for it and show that although we all want to love and be loved we cannot give up our goals becuse if we do we would live to regret some fo the desicions that we made. I feel that this life is short and it should be lived to the fullest with keeping into account what is right and wrong and regardless of your beliefs there are consequences for our actions.